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Haven't been on EP in ages!! ^ O ^

To make up for my long absence let's do a double Pocket Morning Weekly Q&A!!!!!!

Question: If you were to become a teacher, what would you like to teach?

Answer: Oh definitely art! I think art teachers have the easiest time out of all the teachers because they just get you to draw or paint or something and leave you to it! And the marking must be pretty easy too because it's art! Anything can be art! ^_~ Okay okay I'm sure there are some hard parts to being an art teacher...hmm...parts that I can't think of right now. ^_^;

Question: Is there any cosplay you'd like to try?

Answer: I've never been into cosplay before...maybe Yui from K-ON!...or Lain from Serial Experiments Lain, I could dress in her bear outfit! ^_^

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I'm doing good, how are you?

That is all.

My sister's going on holiday for a week today.

Apparently (I say apparently because she never tells me anything ¬_¬;;) she was planning on driving a 4 hour journey herself (by the way she's only just passed her test; about 2 weeks ago). She's going with her boyfriend's family (and the boyfriend of course ^_~) and it would be a bit squished in just one car so she's was going to take hers as well (with her bf going in her car too). Now last night my dad (after a few drinks) goes to bed then gets up again and starts telling her why this is a bad idea (she has never driven a long journey by herself yet i.e. no adults in the car with her, there's no one going with her that is insured to drive her car other than herself so no one can take over if she's really tired, etc. etc.), now I had no problem with what he was saying, in fact I totally agree, he was saying all of this because he's worried about her and doesn't want something terrible to happen to his daughter (neither do I >.< *is paranoid every time she drives alone*), but I did have a problem with how he was saying it. He was very aggressive and in-your-face about it all, very agitated that none of this had been discussed before. I know for a fact that this was because he had had a few too many drinks. He was so in-your-face that he made her cry. I tried to comfort her that he was only looking out for her and wants her to be safe.

Now I get it, he was worried about his daughter and needed to know what she was going to do on this long drive blah blah blah, but could he not have brought all this up earlier (when he was sober). It was the night before she was leaving.

Grrr! You know what, I don't care. I just don't like it when he drinks. I have to tread on egg shells around him after he's had alcohol. The strangest things can set him off. Like the other night I was going out the next day and so wanted to know if he was going out too so I knew if anyone would be home. I ask him if he's going out the next day all the time, always in the evening, but that night, for some reason, he got angry about it and really defensive. In the end he said that it was none of my business and refused to tell me if he was going out. I don't think it was an unreasonable question. I asked it in a nice way. He has to know if I'm going out so why can't he tell me if he's going out (we're talking about the daytime here not evening. I will find out anyway the next day because he'll either be there or won't so why not just answer the question?).

Dad is the only person I can actually have interesting conversations with (we talk about science, time, space, God, life after death, dreams, riddles, how things work like a kettle or something, anything really, mainly me just asking him questions or talking about theories and whatnot ^_^) no one else wants to talk about that kind of stuff with me. But when he's had some drinks I can never tell what kind of mood he's in so never know if he'll snap at me or actually talk to me.

It's so annoying!! >.<

So I'm angry (or just confused, I'm not sure) but I'm also kind of happy.

Now, I warn you now this next bit might sound weird to you if you don't believe in it or whatever, but it's my blog so I'll write what I damn well please thank you very much! ^_~

I saw a ghost again!! ^__^

I haven't properly seen one in agesssss and was worried that I'd never see one again, but when I went to feed my guinea pigs I was about to walk out of my bedroom door and I saw a hand outside in the hall. It was reaching out. I only saw the hand because the door was in the way, but I was so happy...and scared because I'd just finished watching a horror movie about a ghost. ¬_¬; but mainly happy! My guinea pigs went frantic too and ran to the other end of their cage a few seconds later but I don't think that was the ghost, I think that was just coz I stood still for ages and then moved, scaring them.

^____^

I'm happy! I spoke to her (I think it was a her, hard to tell from just a hand) for a while. She didn't speak back; I've never heard a ghost before.

Anyway I think there was also one in my room two nights back, but I wasn't sure so I'm glad I properly saw one today.

If you don't believe in ghosts then just be happy that I'm happy. ^_~

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Okay time for Pocket Morning Weekly (or not so weekly for me!) Q&A!!!!

Question: What's the first thing you do when you return home after a concert?

[NOTE: Okay I know it says concert, but for me let's pretend it says holiday* shall we?]

Answer: I take my bags upstairs and put them in my room, then I make something to eat and have a drink.

*Holiday=Vacation for you Americans ^_~

THERE'S A GUINEA PIG IN MY SLEEVE!!!!!!!!!!11!1!!!ONE!1!!!!!1!!!

Yep one of my guinea pigs was sitting next to my arm and I'm wearing big sleeves and he just crawls right in there.

Typing is a problem right now with only one hand.

Also I'm really really hot but I don't want to disturb my guinea pig.

ARH! So hot!!!! =___=;;

He's shoving my arm too. Guessing it's in his way. ^_^;

He's under my arm so I'm also trying to keep it up so I don't squish him.

Hot!!

HOT!!!!

SO HOT!!!!!!

I hope he doesn't pee in there!!

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Heehee! I can lift up the sleeve with him in there and rock him.

I don't think he wants to come out...

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He's walked to the top of the sleeve now. Hopefully he'll come out that way.

Yes he's coming out bit by bit.

Okay I've managed to take off the dressing gown to make it easier for him to come out.

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He's just sitting there.

Staring at me with a face that says "This sleeve is mine now". Perhaps it was his plan all along.

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THAT'S IT I'M TAKING BACK MY SLEEVE!! THIS MEANS WAR!!

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Okay I was all ready to forcible remove him and he just strolls on out of it! Typical!

I...don't like the new blogs page. You know where you can see all the recent posts. I don't like it. I prefer the old version. Not too sure why though... ¬_¬

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I ate a lot of food this evening! I'm so full!! ^___^;

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My sister bunked off school today and she's going to do it again tomorrow... This is not good. And I've told her that. It's some sort of careers day or something like that and she thinks it's pointless, but she doesn't know what she wants to do so I say take all the help you can get! You never know if you're going to find it useful unless you actually go to it! ¬_¬;;

But does she listen to her very wise older (but not too older) sister? Nope! Not a chance! ^_~

Oh well I tried!

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Today was also the fourth anniversary of the 7/7 bombings. May they all rest in peace. A memorial was unveiled in Hyde Park. I held my own 1 minute silence earlier.

V_V

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I like my blog here. I've had other blogs in the past and I never managed to keep them up, but somehow this one is still going! ^ H ^ Not sure how or why it's still going. Who knew I had so much to talk about?! ^_~

I think it's a very good outlet for me. It helps a lot.

So thank you to all the people who read this or any of my other posts. I'm not sure why you are reading this but thanks nonetheless! Knowing that someone reads my posts helps even more to release emotions because I know someone is reading them. (Did that make sense? Read emotions? @_@ And have I said all this in a previous post?? O_o)

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Let's do a pocket morning weekly Q&A!! (Although for me it's not very weekly, is it? ^_~;;)

Question: What would you like to do if you became really small?

Answer: I'd go live with my guinea pigs!! ^ H ^ They'd probably try to eat me or something though. >__<

^ H ^ I just finished watching all 13 episodes of K-ON!

I'm sad it's over. T_T

They could easily do more episodes.

I hope they do.

Woo! K-ON!

So cute!

I have the ending song as my video on my profile.

I've only seen episode 1 and I'm already in love with it!! ^____^

I really like the animation and the plot is pretty and sweet too.

I'm most like Nodoka, I think, and I look like her too (except my hair's longer)! ^_~

What the hell!?

My dad just yelled at me for doing something he's been telling me to do for ages now.

Our upstairs hallway needs redecorating so first we need to take off all the old wallpaper. I'd already taken off most of it months ago and only had the bits at the top to take off. (I'm lazy, I know!)

So that's what I did.

Yesterday my dad was out so I started doing it then. I got tired before I'd finished it all so I stopped and cleared up all the mess. Picked bits up, swept the floor with a dustpan and brush and finally vacuumed it.

He came home and didn't say anything really. But also didn't seem bothered by it because it has to be done at some point because he also wants to move house.

So I finished it all this evening. There was mess again, of course, so I cleaned a bit of it up and put all the tools and bucket and stuff away. It was pretty late so I was planning on doing the rest of it tomorrow.

(By the way my dad was downstairs while I did all this, but he could hear me.)

So my dad comes upstairs to say goodnight to me and starts shouting about the mess. I say that I'll clean it up tomorrow and he says yeah because it's too late now. But he kept shouting at me about it. I say that I'll do it tomorrow and point out that I made a mess yesterday and cleaned it all up. And then he starts complaining about having to walk through it all of tomorrow.

Let me tell you just how often he walks through there. He gets up and walks one maybe two steps to get to the loo (he doesn't wash his hands so he doesn't need to go in the bathroom ¬_¬) then walks down the corridor to get to his office, he then stays in there for most of the day. He goes down the stairs to get tea and go to the loo again but his office is right next to the stairs so he doesn't walk through the mess then. In total he probably spends a few minutes max in the hall. He doesn't even see it when he's in his office.

I said I'll clean it up like I did yesterday but he still shouts about it.

Where is the problem????

Of course he'd had a few drinks when this happened so I guess I have to factor that in.

I do something good and helpful, something he's told me to do, and I get yelled at for it! How is that fair? He always says it's his house so he can do all the stuff he likes to it, I'm out! I'm not going to help him or anything if this is what I get for my trouble.

I wake up at 6am to feed my guinea pigs, so guess what dad, that's when I'll clean it up, vacuuming and all!

I tried lamb today for the first time.

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I didn't like it.

If I had to pick an anime character I am most like I'd have to say Misuzu from Air.

She doesn't have any friends (until she meets Yukito) - I don't have any friends

She can be clumsy - I can be clumsy (I often walk into walls! >_<;)

She's a dreamer - As am I

Etc etc.

However I look nothing like her. I haven't really found an anime character that I look like, which I suppose is kinda good considering no one looks like an anime character in real life! ^__~

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Question: When you can't sleep at night, what do you do to fall asleep?

Answer: I often have trouble getting to sleep (so much so you can probably call it insomnia) so I've tried lots of things to help me get to sleep, but I think the best thing to do is to keep your eyes closed no matter what! I'm not really sure if it helps, but I think it does because your mind gets bored of the darkness so goes to sleep so it can see dreams instead! LOL! ^____^

I'm very mellow, calm and clear right now. It's nice. ^_^

I really want a dog, or two. ^ H ^

I wish my house had a better outside space. Our garden is quite big and goes all around the house, but there's a lot of brick paving and we have absolutely no grass what so ever just a whole load of weeds growing in the grass area (which is also elevated which is a bit of a nuisance). But there's no where to sit out there, no table or chairs. And even if we did have some it's not a very attractive place to look at. I'd love to just sit out there and put my guinea pigs on the grass so they can get some fresh air, but that's just not possible. My dad keeps saying he's going to get someone to do the grass for us and we were thinking about extending the grass area too but nothing's happening. I even drew up a plan for what we could do with the garden (with da awezome drawing skillz dat I havez, yeah?). I have to keep nagging him with stuff like this otherwise it never gets done.

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My mum is moving again soon. It's going to be another rental though. I haven't seen the inside of it yet (we drove past it last week) but I think the house she's in now is nicer. It is closer to my house though and I can walk there too so I can visit her whenever I like now. ^_~ It's also going to be next door to one of my sister's friends, so it's good for her too. ^ H ^

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Even though I don't use names here, with all the details I put about things like this if someone I know were to stumble upon this they'd probably know it was me!! O_O

Hello again EP. I've been away for quite a while now. I just didn't need EP anymore and felt a bit like EP didn't need me. But I'm back again. Not sure why. We'll see how long it lasts this time. I don't think I can keep EP as a constant thing. I'll probably just bounce back and forth from it.

Don't really know what else to say (do I ever?).

For a long time I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, but now (hopefully) I think I've found something I'd love to do. Writing. I've always enjoyed writing and English was the one class I actually liked going to even though I didn't have any friends in it. I was pretty good at it too (I was an A* student in English ^_~). The first thoughts I have of my childhood are of writing, drawing and playing with my sister, and I've always come back to painting, drawing and writing when thinking about what I'd like to do, so perhaps this is the thing I will always be doing (and if I'm lucky, being paid to do). I'm working on my first (serious) novel now and I'm really excited and energetic about it. ^_^

My laptop has a virus!

First my xbox 360 gets the RRoD and now my laptop has a virus!

What's going to happen next!?

>_<

My sister is the one with a curse when it comes to electronics, not me!

(Her old phone stopped working for no reason, her new phone doesn't work properly, she bought another phone and that didn't work too well either, her laptop breaks but only when it wants to, sometimes it works fine, I could go on!) XD

Oh well. Life goes on.

Yep it got the Red Ring of Death the other day.

T___T

Poor little thing.

I don't play on it for years and when I start again after only 10 days it gets the RRoD.

V___V;;

Goodbye Xbox 360. We had some fun times together. I'll always remember you fondly.

I guess I'll have to either buy a new one or buy a PS3 (I don't like the Wii).

The thing is I don't really want to buy either. I never really liked the PS3 and the xbox has sooooo many things that can go wrong with it...for no apparent reason! >.<

I'll probably just buy another xbox because I already have games for it and I'm more fond of it (God knows why!).

Stupid Microsoft. I used to like them but I'm definitely moving more towards hate. ¬_¬

I wish there was something else I could choose from. I don't like any of them!

I'll buy an xbox 360 but I'm not happy about it! You hear me Microsoft! I'M NOT HAPPY!!

Grr! Now on to Pocket Morning Weekly Q&A. Grr!

Question: If you could make yourself an original juice, what would it be?

Answer: Well orange and apple would have to be in there...and pineapple...and peach....and pear....^_^ can you see where this is going? Yep I'd put all fruits together! Mmmm fruits...

Not happy Microsoft!! >_<

Question: What's your favourite cake?

Answer: Chocolate cake! That reminds me, I didn't get a birthday cake this year! T__T

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Woohoo! I finished GTA 4 a few days ago! It was good, I liked it. But poor Niko. T_T I felt bad for him. There are two different endings and I played one first but didn't like it ^_^ so I went back to the last time I saved it and did the other ending. Of course I'm not going to say what the endings are in case someone who's still playing GTA 4 reads this. ^_~

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I'm going to a Japanese day thing somewhere tomorrow. Not really sure why. My mum is dragging me along. I don't really want to go. There's going to be a cosplay thing going on there. I'm not too keen on cosplay... But I'm trying to say yes to things more so I'm going anyway. Luckily my sister is coming too so hopefully we can have some fun. ^_^ Positive attitude!

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Talking of Japanese things, I've just finished watching Ouran High School Host Club. I really liked it but the ending felt a little weird. It didn't feel like an ending, but it kinda did. O_o I'm okay with open-ended things, I've got no problem with a show that leaves it up to the viewer, but this ending felt like they couldn't decide whether to close it all up and finish it for good or leave it open. Other than that I think it was very good. Loved the twins, Hikaru and Kaoru the most, of course! ^_~

The next anime I'm planning on watching is Vampire Knight.

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There's a film out right now called The Unborn. I've only seen the trailer so sorry if this is wrong, but I think it's about a woman who had a twin in the womb but it died and it's haunting her and wants to be alive or something. If you've been following my blog then you know that I'm a wombtwin survivor like this girl in the film so I really want to watch this film! ^ H ^// Not that I think my twin is haunting me or whatever. ¬_¬;;

Anyway hopefully this film will bring more attention to the topic of wombtwins, which can't be a bad thing. Being a wombtwin really is a huge part of my life. I still miss my twin, I think I always will, but because people (i.e. my parents, my sister and everyone else I know) who aren't wombtwins or don't know they're wombtwins wouldn't understand this grief over someone I don't even "remember" I haven't been able to tell anyone. My mum, out of everyone, is the person who wouldn't understand the most, which is kind of sad because she lost that child too, she's allowed to grieve but I'm not. Oh well, that's just the way things are I suppose. I always have EP people to talk to about this stuff. ^__^ So hugs for you all!

'Ello! Sorry I haven't been on here lately. I don't really have a reason so just sorry. ^_^;;

Although I suppose thinking about it the reason would be because I just got Mirror's Edge and GTA 4 and I've been playing them a lot! ^▽^

I've finished Mirror's Edge already though (everyone says it's too short, but I thought it was fine). I really liked it and I read that there's going to be a second and third one! So I can't wait for them! It's a very original game, I thought. I loved the colour choices, the music and gameplay. I got a little confused with the storyline though so if anyone wants to explain it to me I'd be very grateful. ^_^

GTA 4 is, of course, taking longer to complete than Mirror's Edge but I'm enjoying it so far. I have GTA 3 as well but I didn't really like it. I preferred Driver 3 if I'm honest. Not that I tried to complete much of the plot on either of them. ^_^;; But with GTA 4 I'm trying to complete the missions so wish me luck! ^_~

I'm also looking forward to some other games (not that I'm much of a gamer).

• I Am Alive looks really interesting and unique. Can't wait to find out more.
• Beyond Good & Evil 2 could be good but I don't know anything about the first one to really be sure. I'll have to look it up.
• Bioshock 2: Sea of Dreams is a game I am definitely getting because I have the first one and I love it! I really want to know what they're going to do with the story.
• Final Fantasy XIII is a game I would like to try because I've never played a Final Fantasy game before but I do know about them and I have Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children and I love the character Vincent Valentine so I thought I should actually get a FF game (I know each game is complete separate from each other). I actually want to get Final Fantasy Versus XIII (the trailers look awesome) but I don't have a PS3. T_T
• The Crossing looks like it'll be pretty entertaining.
• Assassin's Creed 2. I also have the first one of this and again absolutely loved it. I really want to find out what happens next and how they're going to continue this.

I'm not actually a big gamer. If you can choose the difficulty I always pick easy because I'd suck otherwise. ^ H ^

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Pocket Morning Weekly Q&A

Question: If you should choose a hot drink to drink in the cold morning, what would it be?

Answer: I'm not a big hot drink drinker (?) but I always love a hot chocolate. ♥♥♥♥